062 // filtered to the infirmary doctors: McCoy and Martha (I play Denise too, so nothing for her)

[thatlibbychick]

Okay, I have to be honest here. I was ashamed to ask about this alone, but I don't really have a choice now. I will snap if I don't get help soon.

I haven't slept for more than a few minutes at a time since the last flood. That's, what...maybe a month ago? I can't do it anymore. Makeup won't hide it anymore, I'm getting sick, and I've lost a good twenty-five pounds that baggy clothes won't serve to mask. It's been interfering with my medication and I'm having severe mood swings and outbursts. I break down when I don't have anything to do with myself. I've spent the past couple of nights huddled against a wall.

I can't sleep because I almost always dream, and if I start I'll scream myself awake again. On top of that, the nightmares just keep getting worse. I need something to knock me out cold. I don't care what it is, so long as I can get it fast.

Just the drugs. I'll deal with the rest myself. I'd be worthless as a psychologist if I couldn't.

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[toldastory]

Libby, I think trying Snape's dreamless sleep potion should be the first step before this.

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[thatlibbychick.livejournal.com]

I don't know how that works, and I'm not in any condition to be playing guinea pig right now.

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[toldastory]

I'm worried about you, Libby. Really worried.

But I understand. It might not even help though, a sedative. You know that.

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[thatlibbychick.livejournal.com]

I also know that if I keep going without trying anything, my last resort will be a gun.

I can't keep this up.

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[toldastory]

All right Libby. I'll give you something, and then we'll try the dreamless sleep potion, yeah?

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[thatlibbychick.livejournal.com]

Good. Thank you.