Damnit Libby, some of these people are delicate mentally at best. They need to be able to trust you as a third party observer. I'm not saying you'd do it intentionally, hell, I'm not saying you'd do it at all but from what you're describing it's damn apparent you're not in the right state of mind to be dealing with them.

You need to talk to someone and you need to take some time to recuperate instead of drugging yourself to oblivion and calling that a cure. It's your duty as psychologist to know and respect that, as hard as it might be.