052 // Because Libby can't be upbeat for TOO long, or the universe will collapse

[thatlibbychick]

She's gone--Drusilla, that is. Her room is empty.

She left me daisies...

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[thatlibbychick.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your sympathy.

[wichita-kansas.livejournal.com]

Empathy.

[thatlibbychick.livejournal.com]

I don't mean any offense by this...but if your inmate ever disappears after a year of work, after a year of sharing vulnerabilities, then I'll accept it as empathy.

[wichita-kansas.livejournal.com]

You'd rather have people pity your position than even try to empathize with it? I can't say that's something I can understand. Pity is pretty shitty to receive. Maybe it's just me, but I hate it when they look at me and think, poor defenseless thing.

I'm not offended if only because you don't know me. I'm sorry if you felt it was cheap or shallow of me to say.

I've worked and lost twelve years of myself in another person. If that makes you feel better.

[thatlibbychick.livejournal.com]

I don't want pity, actually, and if I were defenseless, I would have tucked my tail between my legs and ran away long ago.

Look, let me give it to you straight. I've lost a lot of people. Family, friends, a spouse--and not one of them is the same as the nature of this loss. It evokes very different feelings for me, as a psychologist and as a Warden, and I'm not saying that one type of loss is any more painful than the others. The deaths or disappearances of my loved ones prior to this place were completely out of my hands--I wasn't forewarned or tasked with redeeming them, with saving them, with repairing their psyches. I was supposed to do that with Dru, and apparently, I failed in it.

I'm not going to compare apples to oranges at all right now, not even within the scope of my own life experience. Hopefully, you can understand why.

[wichita-kansas.livejournal.com]

How does some disappearing into thin air qualify as failed? What if she was redeemed and had other places to be?

[thatlibbychick.livejournal.com]

If she was redeemed, I would know about it. She would have left a clearer message, because at that point she would have had the ability to leave clear messages.

Dru is...a little complicated. I don't see how I could have gotten a former homicidal near-immortal with superhuman abilities and a scrambled sense of self to graduation and not know for certain.